A long time ago on Easter Sunday
I struggle to maintain an active blog because I frequently lack topics to write about. Now of course, my blog isn’t for particular topic. Its seriously more personal if anything. I care about the Gospel, I care about practical living and serving the Lord.
For some reason, though, lately I’ve suffered from a case of simple depression. I call it simple because well its just that- I’m simply depressed. I don’t know why, I didn’t necessarily do anything, its just as if I got sad. I don’t like to get ‘sad’ I find it to demonstrate a character flaw, a weakness, an inability to control my emotions. I hate the fact that while I complain about the ‘sensitivities’ of others, I cannot control myself and my ‘sensitivities’. I don’t like to share this, but I figured I would. I don’t know how to get rid of it aside from appealing to the cause of it. Am I wrong to assume this? Did not Paul suffer an affliction? That affliction was sent to him by the Lord himself. And didn’t he plead with the Lord to remove this affliction? Did God remove it? Absolutely not. Instead, God responded:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Of course, I also don’t suffer from typical Evangelical retardation. I don’t believe God doesn’t want me to suffer, or that God somehow needs to heal me of my afflication immediately and if he doesn’t then he isn’t God (as some of my mentally retarted enemies have said). Its as if people assume God to be a majestic grandfather that will not discipline or cause his children to suffer. That is patently stupid. I reject it because its nonsense. God isn’t my therapist or my fuzzy bunny. Ultimately this ‘sadness’ boils to a lack of trust in the promises of the Lord. I don’t trust him, so I get anxious this then turns to sadness. At least thats what I think. Sin is the affliction, and grace is the cure.
I guess God is our doctor, he’s just not the Carenow down the street. He cures us of our sin and the rest may follow.
